Midnight Rant

Is this waiting for eternity?
Time is forever moving
Pressuring my chest
Pressuring my mind
How long should I wait?
I can wait forever
if happiness awaits me at the end
How can I be sure
When arguments and disappointments keep appearing
How can I be sane
when insanity is always here with me
Keep thinking why, how, what etc.
Oh dear Lord,
Please listen to your humble slave
For I am begging on my knees
for happiness in me
Rub off the doubt if it is truly destined for me
I crave for the highest reward of yours
To lead us to Paradise
The secret wonder behind all eyes.