Oneng

My dearest Oneng
Writing about you now already tearing me apart
Your sudden disappearance is a heartache of mine
I miss you
So much
Missing your presence at my doorstep

Apologies

Apologies

It has been a long time since my last post here
Don't worry, my passion is still here.

Used to be my wailing wall
then I moved to another wall
but that wall was too dangerous
for me and for my life...

Then, the wall crushed on me,
hit me hard
I was pushed very deep into the floor of guilt
Made me silent
Very silent, unheard cry

I feel sorry for you
I feel sorry for myself

Apologies.

Fairytales

Fairytales


Sometimes I wonder, is it this that I wanted?
Is it what it is in reality?
Is this how it should be?

It is horrible!
So bad that it is killing me inside,
hurting me inside!
How can it be!

So, it is true that fairytales are just fairytales.