Destiny

Who am I when there is no you
What is marriage when we are not there for each other
What is love when all you feel is emptiness

You have your dream, so do i with responsibility
You have the option now but I am sealed with fixed decision
Neither one of us would want to disappoint our loved ones
But neither one of us would want to leave

As mentioned in our religion...
"Allah tidak akan membebankan umatnya melainkan yang setimpal dengan apa yang ia mampu tanggung..."
I am holding on to this
I am pondering on what is setimpal to me.
May Allah ease our decision.

Till then, I love you.

Checking on Me

People love to check on me
Love to check on what I am doing
And then questioning my job
They feel I am very quiet
As well as not doing my task
I presume.

Memang lumrah manusia
Untuk rasa tidak puas hati
Untuk rasa cemburu
Untuk rasa tercabar.

My words are for your betterment
Neither to create issues
Nor to show off.

Jangan keliru
Kata-kataku amat terang dan jelas
Luruskan sarafmu
Nescaya semuanya akan menjadi semudah kata.

We are learning
You and me
Same situation but different course
Checking and comparing do not make anything better
Not apple to apple
Just sand and water
Different matters, my dear.

Tak Faham

Assalamu'alaikum w.b.t. and a pleasant morning to all of you.

Before I begin my ranting on my messed up mind, I would like to remind you that this post would be very nasty and horrible. If you do not want to ruin your mood, please don't even initiate on reading this entry.

First...


BODOHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! HAAAAAAAAA!!! APAHAL LA SEMUA MACAM BENGONGGG!

HADOIIII, PAYAH BETUL LA NAK CAKAP BAIK-BAIK DENGAN AWAK! WHY IS IT FREAKING DIFFICULT TO TALK OR DISCUSS ANYTHING WITH YOU??

YOU SMART BUT HAVING AN EXTREMELY CONFUSED MIND! PAYAH GILA NAK MAMSSSSSSS CAKAP DENGAN AWAK! UUURGHHHH!

THIS FEELING IS DAMN STUPID AND HORRIBLE! I FEEL VERY STUPID BECAUSE I ONLY ASK A SIMPLE QUESTION YET YOU MISUNDERSTOOD. LAWAK ATAU PLAIN STOOOOPITTTT?
I FEEL HORRIBLE BECAUSE IT HAPPENS ALL THE TIME AND I WILL HAVE HEADACHE  ALL THE TIME! STRESS GILERRRR DOWHHHHH!

AKU KESIAN PADA KAU TAPI AKU TAK TAHAN STRESS NI. FOR EVERYTIME I SPEAK TO YOU, YOU MISUNDERSTOOD AND THEN WHEN I TRY TO CORRECT, YOU WILL KEEP ON STANDING YOUR WRONG STAND!!!! PAYAH LA SIS KALAU ASYIK CAMNI.

FOR YOUR INFORMATION, I AM ALWAYS WORRIED ABOUT YOU AND HOW YOU WOULD FACE YOUR LIFE. SELALU CARELESS TAPI TAK PERASAN SEBAB YOU ALWAYS THINK YOU ARE RIGHT. THAT IS GOOD IN A WAY BUT THE FACT IS YOU ARE WRONG!

Hmmm... Pening la camni. Bila aku naik hanginnnn, melawan. Padahal sendiri salah. Macam-macam hal la. Geram betul. Anyway, I wish you all the best in your future undertakings. You are smart but please don't be careless. Fikir dulu sebelum jawab. Baca dulu sebelum bercakap. Baca sampai habis ayat, baru bercakap. Bila cakap tapi tak fikir, bila baca tapi sekerat, itulah munculnya masalah.

Oklah. Dah ok kot jiwa ni, at this moment. Kalau nak komen, komen yang menyebelahi saya je la ya. Kalau nak support si mental dalam kisah ni, please keep it yourself. Yes, I am very bias right now... sebab sakit kepala.

Bye. Peace.

Pergi Selamanya

Ahaaaa... Sekian lama tak menjenguk blog. Too many stories in a short time. Feelings are beyond words.

Selamat jalan cintaku
Terima kasih untuk segalanya
Tiada kata yang boleh menggambarkan perasaanku ketika melihatmu disaat akhir hayatmu
Gagal mengawal perasaan dan emosi
Bacaan Yaasin kian terputus
Pandangan menjadi kabur
Innalillah wainnalillahirajiun
Salam terakhir, kucupan terakhir, genggaman terakhir
Semoga tenang dan aman dikau disana.

Sentiasa di dalam hati, di fikiran dan di dalam jiwa.

I miss you.