Midnight Rant

Is this waiting for eternity?
Time is forever moving
Pressuring my chest
Pressuring my mind
How long should I wait?
I can wait forever
if happiness awaits me at the end
How can I be sure
When arguments and disappointments keep appearing
How can I be sane
when insanity is always here with me
Keep thinking why, how, what etc.
Oh dear Lord,
Please listen to your humble slave
For I am begging on my knees
for happiness in me
Rub off the doubt if it is truly destined for me
I crave for the highest reward of yours
To lead us to Paradise
The secret wonder behind all eyes.

A Smoke of Memories

Assalamu'alaikum w.b.t.

A smoke of memories
Hovering my head
Cloudy-like and grey it seems
Full of emotions that I want to forget
But it keeps coming back.

It's you
The culprit of the memories
It was good, beyond my imagination
But now it is horrible.

I wish the memories could fade away
Just like the nature of smoke
Blown by a gust of wind
Into the mid air.

And how I wish it could disappear
Let the new ones grow near.

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