A Girl

White

It is all white

The canvas is white

And there is nothing to hide

This is me

This is my life

Of emptiness

And foolishness

What do I do

Say me "I'm a fool"

Can't be happy

Coz I am empty

I am me

Being me is difficult

Bcoz you see

I am weird

You are normal

While I am abnormal

You do things that normal people do

While I am an owl 

The difference is extreme

I can barely imagine

How our life would be

When you are living with me

The love is so strong

And we believe where we belong

To each other

We do our best to hold on

I am not pretty

Neither I am skinny

And what you see

Is always me 

The one who is headstrong

But always breaks down

When she doesn't know where she belongs

No ambition

No aim

Just a useless girl

Trying to fit in the cruel world

Bersendiri

Aku ingin masa untuk bersendiri
Kerana tiada siapa yang dapat memahami
Diriku ini, kehidupanku kini.

Semua hanya mementingkan diri sendiri
Ataupun menunggu kudrat lain untuk memberi.
Ah! Aku benci!

Aku ingin bersendiri
Buat masa ini
Akan aku kembali
Setelah hidupku tenang kembali.

Sendiri
Sendiri
Sendiri
Akan kupulang,
Jika tenang kembali.

Susah!

Apa hal la hidup ni susah sangat.
Ada otak tak nak guna.
Kalau guna pun tak habis pakai.

Life is so sucks like hell.
Haihhhhhh! Benci betul bila marah macam ni.
Lagi benci diri ni bila mula mencarut.

Why is it so hard to think and understand?
Logical things are easy to comprehend.
I am so mad.
Really really mad.

So much of sacrificing
But nothing is coming.
Basically, NOTHING!

Ya, mungkin perjalanan hidup aku ni serba serbi susah.
Benda senang pun boleh jadi susah.
Apa hal entah!

Mungkin orang zaman sekarang serba serbi malas.
Beban sedikit tak mahu galas.

Tuhan beri akal untuk berfikir
Aku pun dah berikan kau jalan,
Dan aku pimpin hingga ke jalan terakhir
Supaya kalau berlaku apa-apa,
Kau akan tahu untuk buat apa.

Malangnya, akal kau belum sampai sejauh itu lagi.
Kau hanya tahu bersuka-ria hingga ke lewat pergi.

Aku tak mahu melihat muka lagi,
Pergi! Pergi! PERGI!

Yuna - Coffee

So, tonight, while waiting and designing a project, here I am, browsing songs at Youtube.
Honestly, I do not know what songs to listen. Bored of Youtube.
Then, I came across Yuna's songs and started playing her songs.
I searched for titles that are I am not familiar with.
Among the songs I listened to, this is the song that I love most for tonight.

Loving this song.  <3

Yuna - Coffee

Enjoy.

P/S: Dear friend, I am going to sleep now. I cannot wait any longer. So sleepy. Goodnight.

Kisah Subway

Memarkir kereta di bahu jalan

Menuju ke destinasi kegemaran

Mendaki tangga yang bertingkat-tingkat

Aduh, kuuuuus semangat!

Tiba di kaunter 

Seperti biasa, sentiasa blur

Sedang ku berteka-teki memilih order

Si dia kuberi laluan dahulu.

Okay, aku dah tahu nak makan apa

Lalu ku memasang telinga,

Dan mendengar pesanan si dia

"6 inch. Honey oat. BMT." ohh?

Aku? "6 inch. Honey oat. Subway Melt"

Hmm... 2 out of 3. Not bad.

Dan di kaunter sayur-sayuran

"Semua kecuali bawang dan cili" hah?

Dan aku? "semua kecuali bawang"

2/3 lagi.

Terakhir, kaunter sos.

Si dia "honey mustard, thousand island and chilli' 

Dan aku? "honey mustard, thousand island, mayonaise, and chilli"

Wow! Semuanya hampir sama! 

Pastinya si dia sepadan denganku. 

Hoorayyy!

Tapi, baru aku teringat,

Ada yang lebih memahami si dia daripadaku

Yang menghafal citarasa dan menu

*knock knock*

Ketuk si akal pada si hati

"Hei si Hati! Sedar sikit, kamu tu berperasaan lebih. Kamu tu siapa? Gaya pun biasa. Kulit kusam belaka. Berparut sini sana."

Hmm... Betul gak. Lupa. 

Untuk kau disana,

Kalau kau baca,

Bunyinya:

Hai awak! 

Cinta itu tak kenal rupa, tak kenal usia

Mungkin saya tak sehebat si dia yang menghafal menu awak

Mungkin juga saya tidak serupawan seperti dia

Tapi saya harap awak lihatlah saya

Lihat dengan mata hati

Agar terdetik untuk memahami rasa di sanubari.

Salam ikhlas daripada pemuja di Subway hari ini.

 

Gertakan

Gertak!
Tidak sedikit ku gentar.
Mengapa?
Aku tahu aku benar.

Kau dan aku
Sama panas, sama baran
Kau gertak, aku gertak
Tiada yang akan mengalah
Siapa mahu kalah?

Empty

Just wasting my time
On something that is undefined
And sleep is just an excuse
As one constantly being accused.

No heart is not fragile
Even water would wave a mile
There is a shoulder to lean on
But are you there from dusk to dawn?
As I always end up breaking down.

I am here and willing to stay
For I know I won't be far away
Day and night I always fight
For a love that I am sure is right.

To be left alone in the middle of nowhere,
Finding path to the right way
But always ended elsewhere.

Prickling water down the cheeks,
Let it dry, let it disappear with the wind
For you are always alone
No one to share, no one to chaperone
And slowly... gone.

About You

You know that nobody needs you when they begin to ignore.

You know that nobody cares about you when you are neglected.

You know that nobody feel you when you feel disconnected with them.

You know that nobody loves you when everyone around you are in love.

You know that you are a nobody when you feel alone in the middle of everyone.

You know that you are alone when you only hear your own voice back.

You know that you are not valuable to anyone when they do not value you.

You know that you are stupid when people are making fun and fool of you.

You know that you are worthless when people do not appreciate you.

You know that you are useless when people keep on blaming you when actually you are right.

Haus

Haus tekak dek panas,
Haus bumi dek kurang hujan,
Haus ilmu dek bermain,
Haus adab dek kurang hormat,
Haus teman dek sombong,
Haus harta dek kedekut,
Haus agama dek lalai,
Haus darah dek hasad dengki,
Haus mata dek buta,
Haus kasih dek tamak
Haus kata dek kurang membaca!

Pewarna Kuku

Ku memang sukakan warna.

Warna apa pun kusuka.

Sambil menunggu angka giliran,
Aku berjalan merata Tesco,
Pusing dan pusing dan pusing.

Memang pun tak jumpa apa,
Dok pusing tempat yang sama.

Hokaaayyy...

Jalan depan sikit.

Aha, kedai aksesori!

Seperti biasa,
Belek-belek semua,
Belek, belek, belek dan belek,
Adehhhh, bosannya.

Bosan seperti diriku,
Kanvas putih hampir berdebu,
Tiada warna,
Kalau ada warna sekalipun, pasti kelabu.

Berjalan lagi keliling kedai.

Mata terarah ke arah sesuatu,
Sesuatu yang telah lama kutinggalkan,
Pewarna kuku!

Heaven sehhhh!

Semua warna ada,
Merah, biru, oren, merah jambu, hijau,
Metalik, glitter, matte, dan biasa.

Banyak untuk dipilih,
Takpe, ada banyak masa.

Pilih dan pilih dan pilih,
Yang mana pilihan hati,
Diambil dan diletak kembali,
Ahhh, peduli!
Lalu, dua buah botol kecil kubeli.

Yeayyy!

Pewarna kuku penyelamat hari suramku,
Benar kata seseorang, warnailah dirimu,
Pastinya kau akan gembira dan tersenyum selalu!

#merepekz

Ironi.

Bila cakap, dibidas,
Bila cakap, dibidas,
Bila diam, ditanya,
Bila masih diam, merajuk.

Pening kepalaku menafsirmu,
Terpinga dan tergaru-garu.

Hadoiiiii!

Kuperlu tidur dan didodoi,
Alunan musik menerjah telinga,
Tanpa mengira irama mahupun genre.

Sekian.