Assalamu'alaikum w.b.t.
This is a dedication... To my beloved...
Basically, this is just an entry to pour everything from my heart. Writing this entry is like relieving something big in my heart and mind.
I am sorry I could not say it directly to you because for sure you would not want to listen or maybe the trauma is still with you. I also don't know how to spell it out to you. Nobody knows except for a few people.
To you MY LOVE,
I hope this is a turning point in your life.
Make a change in your lifestyle and please remember ALLAH in every single thing you do. HE is with you ALL THE TIME. Jangan berputus asa & jangan sekali-kali berpaling daripada ALLAH. Bear this in your mind, HE IS THE ALMIGHTY. Seek in Him forgiveness and guidance.
I hope you listen to your parents.
No matter how angry they are to you, they still love you. Marah kerana sayang. Never ever break your parents heart especially your MUM. Jangan buat mak menangis. Ingatlah, syurga, dosa, pahala, restu etc datang daripada mak & ayah, lebih-lebih lagi mak. Betapa besar dan tingginya darjat mereka. Please, kalau tak nak dengar cakap akak, dengarlah cakap mak & ayah. Mohon ampun daripada mereka.
I hope you realise how important is future.
We are working very hard for you because we love you and we want you to have a bright future. We are having sleepless nights thinking of ways to help you. Hati kami tak tenang. Siang, malam, pagi, petang... Kami memikirkannya. Writing this already saddens me. We don't know how else but we are trying our best to help you.
YA ALLAH! Berdebar-debar hati ini selagi isu ini belum selesai. Hilang kudrat kami. Jasad je nampak tenang, kata-kata kami pun kedengaran tenang tetapi sesungguhnya Allah sahaja yang tahu apa yang ada di dalam hati-hati kami. Ma fi qalbi ghairullah.
To you OUR BELOVED,
I hope you will really change into a better person and quit your 'meriah' lifestyle. We have nothing else to say.
Semoga Tuhan mendengar doa kami. Semoga Tuhan mempermudahkan urusan kamu & kami. Semoga Tuhan membuka pintu hati kamu untuk menjadi khalifah-Nya yang terbaik & yang boleh membimbing dirinya serta keluarganya. Semoga Allah membuka pintu hati mereka untuk membantu kamu.
Berusaha, berdoa & bertawakkal. Kami sedang berusaha & tetap akan berusaha selagi keputusannya belum dikeluarkan. Disamping itu, kami juga berdoa agar Allah memberi kamu peluang kedua untuk menjalani hidup sebagai insan yang biasa. Tawakkal hanya bila keputusan dikeluarkan.
To you OUR BELOVED,
Keep strong. Stay strong. Remember Allah. Keep praying. Study smart.
Much love,
Kami
